"A Reason for Everything Under the Sun"

There is a reason for everything under the sun. From broken hearts or shattered dreams to better than expected endings, there is a reason for it all. Time can only provide the revelation for any answers you may seek sometimes. Things don’t always go as planned or your way, no matter how hard you try or how much heart you may invest in it. The sad truth is that we are all at the mercy of others of greater power and they have control of at least part of our lives. The decisions they make have a profound impact on us and we find we have to change our direction.

"A Righteous Man"

I’m not always sure that I am, but this morning I allowed myself the opportunity of a prayer by simply asking forgiveness for my sins and for my needs to be met. There was no since into going into great detail. Besides, I have no idea what my needs are, at the moment, in detail. I ask myself if I am a righteous man and if my prayer will be answered. It was a simple act of faith so I have no doubt.

"The Sheep in Wolf's Clothing"

Sort of a strange way of putting this old metaphor, isn’t it? There is always a different way of looking at things; another side of the coin. We all have heard the reversal of this and we all understand it’s meaning, but what about turning it around one hundred eighty degrees? What then? What do you think? What about the folks who are true to this metaphorical life style? Do we count them out from the beginning? Can they exist? Hell, do they exist?

I speak of those people who are outwardly and brutally honest. Most would think it is pure arrogance (and sometimes it is) that drives their personalities. Some even fear them and most fears are caused by the lack of knowledge and/or understanding. We fear what we don’t know. On the inside, these rare gems truly care and they can be the gentlest of human beings you can ever meet. It only takes time and an open mind to see this.

I have the utmost respect for these wonderful people. It takes an astounding amount of courage to be as they are. I have no clue as to why they are the way they are. More than likely it is a culmination of many experiences that has taught them that it is the right thing for them to be. If one is confronted by one of these rocks of truth and is troubled by what they may say, again, more than likely, there is a reason for that. They have a knack of stirring the soul and uplifting the spirit, if they are allowed to.

So, I say, allow them to. Give them the benefit of the doubt. Open your mind to new ideas and wisdoms that may come your way. Who knows? You may learn a thing or two about your own self. Allow yourself to get a closer look inside the heart and mind of this sheep in wolf’s clothing.

"When Is It Gonna Become Ok To Be Myself?"

My son posted this question on his Facebook wall early this morning. I think it is a question everyone of us has asked ourselves at one point in our own lives and quite possibly more than once. Ridicule and condescending attitudes towards each other is a major cause for asking ourselves this question, along with our own lack of knowledge of who we really are and who we are wanting to become is another.

The truth is we know who we are by our own beliefs or convictions. We live by these beliefs and convictions because we learn them from our own experiences. These experiences we go through cause us to re-evaluate and make changes. Change is inevitable and to change for the better is necessary for true growth. It’s all a part of growing up and I think none of us really ever grow up because we never stop learning until we leave this earth.

People, they are all around us and there is no getting away from them. But we do have a choice of who we desire to be around us. Surround yourself with those who truly accept you as you are, but will never lie to you, even if the truth is harsh. But remember the truth is in the heart of the beholder. What truth that may pertain to someone else, may not to you. Surround yourself with those who will build you up and help you to make those changes for the better. It’s good for the spirit. It’s good for the soul.

"Taking A Day Off"

I decided to take a much needed day off from work. It’s October 7th and the last day off I have had was September 5th. Yesterday was a bitch of a day and I was afraid that if I had gone to work today, someone would lose their job; probably me. I remained pissed off most of the night last night and I just didn’t want to deal with that this day.

I really do not enjoy being treated like some child who needs to be told more than once what needs to be done. I realize the pressures that can come with being management and that getting the job done is priority one. But to not show some respect to those who management actually depends on to get the job done just doesn’t make sense. I believe it is detrimental to achieving the goals that have been set forth. “You can get more from a horse with sugar than you can salt.”

When I am at work, my work is what I think about. I don’t fuck off, especially when fucking off is not an option. I take pride in my work in that if I can’t put my name on it, then why bother doing it in the first place? I have always been that way. I guess I am a perfectionist, but that’s just me.

I work my ass off every day I work. And to be treated as I was yesterday after working so long without time off and giving my best…well, I just don’t give a rat’s ass how things go for them today. I just don’t. They can survive without me for one day, I think. I come so very close to telling this person who was so disrespectful towards me what I really thought of her. But, I held my tongue. This is twice now that this has happened from this same person. It also happened three times from one other person. The third time, I let him have it. He and I now have come to an understanding and we get along just fine. This other person has one more time.

"Sticks and Stones"

“Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me.” It’s a childhood phrase for the most of us; a self-defense mechanism to help ease the pain of hurtful words, because words do hurt, deeply. Although I know it shouldn’t, it still amazes me how adults can spew out words that cause the deepest pain possible, especially to those they “love or care about”; how judgmental they can be towards others without the slightest attempt at looking into the mirror or remembering how these others have been there for them in the past.