"One Night With You"

     To hell with one night! I want tonight, the next night, and the next, and the next until...well, it all come to a graceful ending. The days, I want them too! Yes, I'm greedy! I admit it! I want it all or nothing! I have never really seen myself as a one night stand kind of guy and I have never been good at it, the few times I tried. I was left with such an empty feeling inside, wondering, "what the hell was I thinking?" Trust me, I have no intentions of judging the few partners I have had on a one night stand. So few, I could count them on one hand. But the point is how they felt about themselves is not known to me. I'm not sure I want to know. They wanted exactly the same thing I did, so, who am I to judge? But I never could stand knowing how I may have caused someone else to feel less than who they are. That's what bothers me the most. For those who are good at that kind of lifestyle, if that's what makes them happy, then happy they shall be. Everyone deserves a little happiness...EVERYBODY!

    

     All I want in life is one good woman who wants one good man. Sometimes I think I set the bar way too high in my expectations. Maybe I do. I know they are great! But I can't help how I feel. These are my convictions I speak of. I know I'm not the handsome guy that could get any girl he wanted. I never have been. I know I'm as about as sharp as a marble at times about some things. Most of all, I know I can't get any girl I want. Believe me, I have tried. One day, I will be done with leaving my heart out for all to see. Sure, it's great to hear the compliments but that isn't enough. One day, I will leave it up to you, who ever you may be, to say, "Hmm...Who is that guy? He's mighty quiet. I wonder why? Maybe I should find out why." That scares the living shit out of me!