"Opportunity Of New Beginnings"

I am caught between the past and the future, hovering just above the present. Not a day goes by when I hope and pray that my feet actually get to touch the ground and I can finally move forward. I catch myself looking back so much at what was. That can’t be a good thing except in moderation. There is nothing wrong in looking back in reflection or to reminisce. I have had everything I have ever wanted at one time or another, if not simultaneously. I have known love. I have been a father. I have had a best friend. The rest is not relevant because it all can be purchased off the shelf. I have experienced loss. My heart has been broken and I am guilty of breaking some ones heart.

Motivation is hard to come by at times and I realize that the lack of a plan has all the earmarks of a dead end street. I have tripped and fell many times and I have also been knocked on my ass a time or two, making the task of getting back up, brushing yourself off and starting all over again more difficult each time. Maybe I need to change the way I think when it comes to the big picture. Maybe there really isn’t one, only the opportunity of new beginnings, likened to the morning or the spring.