"The Gemini...Naturally Bi-Polar"

I am the Gemini...the twin. I am a twin in reality, as well. I am a lover, not a hater. I do avoid conflict but I will also face it if need be. When I am good, I am very good. When I am bad, well, you get the picture. There is very little room for luke warm. I am either hot or cold. I do realize and respect the full spectrum of colors between the basic black and white. I am often torn between what is real and a dream that I wish so badly to come true. The Bible speaks of a "double minded man being unstable in all his ways." That may very well be true and some have probably thought of me as having more than one personality. But, I look at it this way, I have the ability to look at things from more than one angle and I have always thought of me as being...me.

I have sometimes envied those who are not like me (other than a Gemini), those who seem to have their shit together and have always had a sense of identity.  It hasn't always been that easy for me. I feel I have spent a lifetime figuring out who I am, always trying things differently in search of the truth, like my whole life has been spent in a lab and I was mixing this with that and recording the results in the deepest part of my mind. It's amazing how much storage space the human mind has for all the shit we keep in there.

The Gemini is a very special breed, indeed. I have really never known the reason why that is or even if it is actually true, but I believe it to be. I don't think I am any different or better than anyone else, Gemini or otherwise. I am just one more person in the world trying to figure out what the hell all this is all about. The countless emotions we have every moment we exist determine who we are to become. Some learn that early on, some later in life, and the rest in between.

Some things I am still debating on. Some things I have figured out and even defied them, losing the battle each time. Some things I have yet to experience and I am pretty sure I haven't a clue what those things are until I do. I will cross those bridges when I come to them. In the meantime, I will continue to wear my heart on my sleeve, keep an open mind to what others may think or feel, and realize that whatever life has yet to offer me is for me and me alone. But I will also continue to share with you and others what I absorb in this spongy organ I have in my head called a mind.