"Later Dude"

There was a time when I just couldn’t wait any longer to see you, be with you, talk with you. Isn’t funny how time can change someone? But is it that someone changes or is it more like time has allowed getting to know that someone? Or did time change me? I am thinking the honesty had a lot to do with the way things are now. I was honest to a fault and it caused pain. Maybe we started off on the wrong foot to begin with.

Regardless, I move forward into the future. I can’t be concerned about something I cannot change. It would certainly be a fruitless effort. My honesty will continue to change what others think about me. I wouldn’t have it any other way. I can at least know without a doubt who I can trust with my heart and spirit by those who choose to remain by my side, the faithful few that I have grown to love very much and care about with all my heart and soul.

I never hold ill will toward those who have come and gone. It was their freedom of choice and at least they granted me that for myself. I will never hold ill will towards you. That’s how I roll. My honesty can be a little bit unorthodox in comparison to the norm. I never said anything that I didn’t truly feel. I also never said or asked of anyone, anything that I wasn’t willing or able to give or do on my own. I treated you exactly the way I wanted to be treated. Yes, it was painful at times, but pain is a bi-product of honesty. It’s to be expected.

So, with all this being said, I used to look forward to you. Now, I don’t. It’s apparent that you have moved on as well. That can be a good thing. Will I miss you? Of course I will! The times we had together were good and memorable. Did I want it to last longer? Of course I did! But I really never expected it to; too many hurdles to jump and way too long a track. But I can feel deep within my heart that I did try my best. I have no regrets for anything I did or said because I was only being honest and I can’t go wrong with that.