"Afraid to Come Out"

I can’t show my face

I’m so out of place

I’m always wondering how to get back in this race

Life’s thrown me thorns

I’m facing God with scorn

And sometimes I wish I had never been born

Life’s been hard

I’ve had to be a rock

But it seems my will has run out of stock

I’ve not reached you

The last few years

My heart has emptied of all the tears

When will it end

This river of doubt

I’m here in the dark and I’m afraid to come out

When will it end

This ocean of doubt

I’m here in the dark and I’m afraid to come out

These roads I have traveled

So many times before

These all too familiar landscapes

The countless closed doors

The light of day fills my room

Yet I curl up in a ball

As if still in the womb

It’s strength I need to carry on

I reach towards the heavens

Only to find you gone

When will it end

This river of doubt

I’m here in the dark and I’m afraid to come out

When will it end

This ocean of doubt

I’m here in the dark and I’m afraid to come out

© 2010 Robby J. Ward, Sr.