"It's A Step Up!"

It’s December 22, 2010. Tomorrow would be five years to the day that my life changed. I wanted to wait to write about it but I couldn’t. I’m too excited. Maybe this is a day of release from all that has happened since. I think about that day, five years ago, almost every day but through it all I have learned a lot about myself. I have also gotten validation for a few things I wasn’t quite sure of.

I had one goal in mind and it was a pretty broad goal. It was ‘all inclusive’ shall we say. Building a new life was that goal and I was three months into it when it all went to shit in a matter of only a few minutes. I won’t go into details because this isn’t what it’s all about now. It’s all about a new door that has opened and as hard as I have tried not to enter, that door still remains open. I am stepping through that door. Dallas, you may have won a couple of battles but you have yet to win the damn war!

All this time that I have focused on that door, I kept asking myself, “Do I actually deserve this? Am I supposed to be grateful?” Today, actually only a few minutes ago, I had an epiphany. I was on my way to the store for smokes and while driving, I was thinking about this door, this new job and it hit me! “It’s a step up!”

Grateful indeed! There are many other little things and a few other huge things that I am grateful for. But I am so very thankful for the people that had their part in my ‘recovery’. I know that I couldn’t have made it this far without them. If we have met somehow, you are included. We should never take for granted anyone because even the tiniest parts add up to one remarkable result.