"To Do or Not To Do? That Is The Question!"

Do I make any resolutions for the new year or not? I ask myself that every year while knowing that I won’t. But it is fun to speculate. Most times I am caught between several options or directions to go with. In order for me to even think about any resolutions I would have to look back on the previous year/years to maybe see what I lack or whether or not I have accomplished anything worthy. That in itself is disappointing because I am always in a constant state of mind that “there is always room for improvement here”. That’s not to mention a few times when I did make a resolution or two and ended up in total failure. So, I try not to get into that part of any new year’s celebration. Just let me have my fireworks and a clock and I’m happy!

This year, it isn’t any different than any other. I am tempted. But there is a new feeling about this upcoming year that I haven’t had for quite some time so I am still straddling the fence on it making any. I haven’t ruled it out just yet. I want so very much to have my life back in my own possession, in my own hands. I haven’t had that for a long time and I miss it so very much. And what I mean by that is to be able to independent and self sufficient. I want to be able to take care of myself and I have an opportunity to do that for the first time in a very long time.

This is not new to me. Every year this goal has come to me and I have quietly made this resolution for the new year ahead. Nothing different had changed and disappointment was the rule for the year. I am praying that is far from the norm this time. So, with all this being said, I think I will make at least one New Year’s Resolution (everything crossed; eyes, fingers, toes, arms, legs, and what few hairs I have left) I want to get my book published. I’m not sure how I will get this done, though. I have looked online for how it’s done and I was very surprised at all that is involved in doing so, especially for first time writers like myself. Hell, I’m not even sure if it would even sell. It’s something that I will have to think on very carefully as time passes and very methodically to get it done. It’s my heart’s desire! What more can I say?